Have you ever thought about killing yourself because you were being bullied?

Yes I have even tried I slit my wrist and I was being bullied by my father

yes i have! ive thought of blowing the back off my head out with a .44 magnum (i think thats wat it was) cuz of being bullied!

i felt like i wanted to torture the ones who were bullying me.

I really do appreciate this website, and you know I thank god that there are people here to help me but you know, there's that 78% chance that I am just going to lose it one day.i cant stand the sinful, meaningless person I am. I hate how I look I hate who I am I hate my bullies but I hate myself most of all. I am the meanest most heartless person I know, and the people around don't need this kind of bs. i'm debating whether or not I should leave it all right now, or stay and try to work it out. but you know I'm trying. I haven't killed myself and I haven't left yet. I am just waiting for that someone to show me MY meaning in life, but that person just hasn't come yet. and here I am waiting, waiting for someone to say I WANT you to stay. could anyone please just at least say something nice? please?... anyone? I could really use some help.