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Goldilottes said:
Things have happened to me too so i know what you mean.
i gave up everything i knew to go somewhere i hated just to be with the boy that was the love of my life. i gave up my friends (not intentionally), my studies, my time, my life, my personality, even my mum gacve up the job she loved, which i felt bad about). then lots of difficult heartbreaking things happened all at the same time and i was struggling to cope. i eventually lost touch with the few friends i had left because i was busy dealing with the mountain of issues. since then my lively chatty grandpa went into hospital and became a shadow of who he used to be. my cat who was one of the few friends i had left died which i was convinced was my fault. i was dreadfully depressed by this point.
, and it showed. i stopped being who i used to be because of this, and my boy noticed. i couldnt tell him about everything because it was too painful, so i just slipped into an emo. he thought this meant i didnt love him anymore, and he was totally heartbroken. he went to college thinking i hated him, and i never got to tell him how i felt. this was the thing that absolutely crushed me. it didnt help that id had my phone stolen that contained many irreplacable pictures and videos of my granpa, cat and when me and when times were perfect with my bf.
a few weeks later, just to top it all off, one day as i was on my way to see my special aunt for advice, i discovered she'd died that morning and i'd missed her by hours, so now i had no one to confide in.
so i lost everything. and i cant get rid of this new dark personality ive aquired that no one likes. and people wonder why im emo. >.<
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